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iam so lousy at making decisions. like deciding where to go, what to eat, what work to do, what length of hair do i want. all these easy peasy things are hard for me. just like i took like forever to decide if i still wanted to go for the dinner. or whether i should go shopping or just stay home and mug and wait for the moolah from my dad. stupid. i think this i the worse period ive been going thru. everything just comes rushing and flooding back. and i aint sure what i should be doing about some of them. ive been crying so much so lately. about trival stuffs. about stuffs seemingly big at this point of time but actually's probably just as small as a fullstop at the end of this sentence. was quite glad to tell luqi about some stuffs that only he will probably at least understand a bit. and i did feel so much much much much more better. after crying and letting it all out. i shall not be bothered anymore. like i said, i treasure my relationships but it only works 2ways when the other party tries too. but if the other party doesn't, then iam not sure i want to keep trying anymore. anyway, my ultimate solution for problem solving: SLEEP look at what i did today: work up at 9 to eat breakfast when back to sleep at 11 woke up for breakfast at 1 when back to sleep at 2 woke up at 5 and had dinner at 6 and then after 6 it was purely entertainment-the google box till 10. now what did i do today. what did i do? be a pig. i just love the older love songs. the truly madly deeply, i knew i loved you kind. the kind with umms, i think, cheesy titles. even some of britney's older ones (dont gag please) but they sound so good even after a few years. and they make you feel so sad. istillmisschenyiwei. no es amor i peeked at the world thru mie lil eyes 11:02 PM
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